In this blog, I am speaking from experience, so trust me when I say I know exactly what you are going through and the roller coaster ride that is called “Cancer”.
In 2004, right after turning 40, I flunked my very first mammogram. I was always a good student, but I hated pop quizzes. But I will say that in reflecting back, I had a warning that something was wrong, and no I did not find the lump. I was sitting in my office at work when a pain so intense felt like it was coming from my left nipple. Now, I will be honest, breast cancer did not cross my mind. I was thinking more in line with something wrong with my heart. However, like the majority of us, I ignored it and moved on.
So a couple of months later, my husband had left for our place in Tennessee, I was putting together a craft cabinet. It slipped in my hands and landed right on my left breast. I drove up the next evening to Tennessee and I was taking my shirt off when I looked in the mirror and saw the deformity to my breast. Again, I assumed it is was because a cabinet fell on it. Actually it was God hitting me over the head to go get checked out. That is when we discovered I had breast cancer. Perhaps the most devastating moment in my life. I was only 40. Then came the realization that cancer doesn’t care what age you are when it strikes. It just strikes.
I elected to do chemotherapy first before a mastectomy. I wanted to know that the treatment was actually affecting the cancer cells and it was killing them. As well as making me feel like something that cat drug home.
I also elected to work through treatments in order to maintain some semblance of order to my life and to not drown myself in self-pity. I was not the first person to get this disease and unfortunately will not be the last. Feeling sorry for myself was out of the question. Life happens, make the best of every situation.
Of course, maintaining the cool outer persona is difficult when inside you don’t feel tiptop and you feel ugly. One of my nurses told me I looked cute bald and should just slap on some lipstick and earrings and go about my business. I was concerned about making others feel uncomfortable. So I donned the wig and did my best in public. At home, the wig came off (they are hot) and the most comfortable thing I could find went on.
But, hindsight being 2020, I realize that I should have only worried about me. It would have made the journey a lot less stressful. Plus, maybe others would realize the struggle and thank the Lord they were not walking in my shoes.
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